Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Not Fade Away

"Where is the praising and extolling of my virtues? Where's the love?"
AtS, 2:22


My usual Whedon.info digest caused a much sudden intake of breath as I read the headlines while at work, "Andy Hallett dies of heart failure...". I had to pause for a while and let the thoughts digest themselves, that the actors of my ever-immortal characters that I play over and over on my DVDs could actually be mortal.

"Take care of yourself and ah, and make sure fluffy is getting enough love."
AtS, 4:01


Lorne may never have been the highlight for me in Angel, but thanks to him being an empath demon with much insight, he serves to be the one to say put things out there when no one dares to say it. Sorta like a subtler Anya, in you will. His wisdom laced with humor are heartwarmers, laugh riots and simply endearing. Oh, and I love it when he calls Angel pastries. And Andy, the person behind the make-up and horns and colourful suits, well, he brings them to life. The way his voice changes from The Host to friend, you can feel the depth and feeling Andy brings to make that character believable. And his eyes convey much more than words can.

I want to say more, and I've been sitting here thinking of words to explain what I love about Andy's portrayal of Lorne and Lorne as a character himself, but I can't seem to find the right words. No matter, because he'll always be alive to me; even if it is just in my DVDs. And Andy/Lorne, you're no lackey. You'll sing on.

"Good night, folks."
AtS, 5:22
Love,
Linzy the Whedonite
P/S: Dollhouse is just amazing. It's not too late to convert to Whedonism. Watch Dollhouse.

Monday, March 30, 2009

This time, Last year...ep. 8

Tired from having squeezed my brain out for one exam, I was up to having another adventure out with my Twisties; a therapy in itself. So of course I did not give up the chance to have dinner with them one night. Yumi picked Lina, Ash and I and we proceeded to head towards Intai-intai.

Intai-intai is a small nook of a restaurant on the road towards Ampang. It really lives up to its name, because, situated along the road behind rows of car workshops and the like, no one would actually see it unless they intai (peek) behind them. There, one would see a quaint little restaurant that is built all around a very small lake, and has a nice cosy ambience to it; with the dim lights all around with a surreal feel to it, like it is detached from the busy world outside. Nice.

The four of us sat down and took a gander at the menu, which was varied and quite interesting, cos the spread was not the typical food one would find. The maitre 'd recommended some interesting selections and we mostly went with it.

It is always nice, of course, to enjoy good food with good company, as I always say. And the ambience of the place lent to us a much relaxed feel that made it all the sweeter.


If I recall correctly, Ash had Research Methodology finals the next morning, and he has yet to study. So we had to get him back. Yumi dropped Lina and I at one of the petrol stations just before IIUM and sent Ash back, while the two of us waited.

Yumi came back, picked us up and we headed to the Karak highway McDonald's at another petrol station. We ordered some foodstuff and we were there for many hours; just talking abot all sorts of things. It really was a heart to heart session between the three of us.. Towards morning, around 4am or so, we started getting a little sleepy and decided to adjourn to Yumi's place for some shut-eye.

Lina and I took the master room, and I remember something being asked about whether I was a sleep talker... Nope I wasn't, so lucky me. At some point Lina woke me up to ask me what was that sound. I spotted Cek Tom fidgeting about that was causing the noise. I pointed, and promptly feel back to sleep. I woke up rather early cos my Entrepreneur class lecturer was looking for my assignment. He found it, though. I took a bath, and feel asleep again. Only woke up again sometime mid-day...

To be continued in ep.9...

Love, Linzy~

Sunday, March 29, 2009

This time, Last Year...ep.4, 5, 6 & 7

Ok, I've been a little malas due to my being sick and not having that much time and energy to think and type out words. Hence, my leaving several entries neglected and unwritten. So, here goes:


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20th March 2008

Episode 4

The night before the 20th of March 2008, I had my final assessment for my Entrepreneurship skills class. I was stressing so much that I missed my classes and was running about to print and stuff; seeing how my teammates were none too helpful. Thankfully, I had the Twisties helping me out lots.

After the presentation, Yumi sent me back to Nusaibah and I told her I might wanna go to Ampang Point the next day after my Islamic Aqidah second midterm test to get some pressies for my sister. Yumi said she might tag along.

After my test, which I almost missed cos I woke up 15 minutes before the test, I text Ash and Yumi, the only ones in the vicinity who'd be there to go with me. Ash said he could teman me, and later Yumi replied that she was in, too, so she'd be picking us up.

And so we went, and we shopped and we ate at Taiwan Noodle House, and we wondered what to do next. The day was young, and possibilities were endless. So the three of us found ourselves just driving around aimlessly, weaving in and out of streets, taking in the sights. At one point I wanted to kuih, but only mentioned it after we passed no more stalls that might have them :p We drove here and there, with Ash taking over at some point and just went around. We passed some dudes playing football, at which point Yumi and I stared, and for some reason, we soon found ourselves in Amcorp Mall.

Yumi did some book shopping after I introduced her to Book Xcess and we had dinner at Uncle Chili's. Ash was acting weird and Yumi and I thought it was because he drank a weird concoction of some sauce and drinks from a straw...eew. And also maybe cos of the lack of nicotine :P

So here is where the three of us start our drives together...



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27th March 2009

Episode 5

This would be one of the last times all of us (with the exception of Stitch) would be together in one place in one time at Bangi Kopitiam. There was Aaina, Ash, Ayumi, Fidzy, Lina, Maj, Raqib, and me all there at our favourite table having tea/early dinner together like we have done the entire semester. This would be something that I miss dearly, as in the coming months, things would change dramatically.

We had dinner, returned, cos of Aaina and I had our last History of the United States class that we could not miss, while Yumi, Ash and Maj went off for drinks. After our class, Aaina had to head out with friends while Yumi said that Maj would be picking me up to at the tangga besar to join them. I waited, Maj came, and we left.

Had drinks with the three eventhough it was already 11pm and counting. Curfew was at 12am, but we went on talking. Pretty soon, we had to leave, but even then, it was 5 minutes to 12am. Maj headed home, while Yumi supposedly had to send us. I was hyped up at the knowledge of being at the end of the sem, and was up to adventures aplenty; and had that slight reluctance to my voice about going back. Ash sensed it. Stopped at the petrol station by the roadside cos Ash wanted to go to the loo.

When Ash came out, he had a serious, determined look that brooked no nonsense. He tapped on Yumi's driver's side window, signalled her to move to the passenger seat wordlessly amd took over the wheel. There was total silence in the car as we adhered to him. We didn't dare say a word. I strapped myself in as he drove. He was quiet, deadly serious, and he drove fast towards the turn to IIUM, and at the last second, swerved off the lane and onto the road leading away from campus. After a few quiet moments, realization sank in.

We will not be going back tonight.

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28th March 2008

Episode 6

We will not be going back tonight
.

Yumi and I thought as we looked wide eyed at our hijacker. And after some long seconds stretched, our abductor laughed maniacally. I was freaked out, honest to God I was. But he was Ash again, smiling devilishly at what he had just done. Yup, we were out for an all nighter for sure. And I didn't mind a bit.

We drove on. The night is always beautiful for sight-seeing if you like watching the lights go by, all blurry in its myriad of colours. And it's even better when you have good company. We drove all over that night. Cyberjaya/Putrajaya was one of our first stops. There was of course, our notorious toilet incident at Shangri La and our admiring the beautiful bridges at the night.

It was about 3am that we left Cyber/Putrajaya, and we proceeded to drive around KJ, Shah Alam (where I got us a little lost despite it being my hometown), then back to KL and ended up back in the McDonald's along the road near Wangsa Maju. Had an early breakfast and then went some where on the hill to watch the sunrise. We then started back to IIUM to catch up on them Zs.

It was a crazy, wonderful night. I loved it. It sure beats being bored and alone in the room watching movies on my laptop. That was then, a year ago.


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29th March 2008

Episode 7

Aaina and I were busy studying for our US History final exam the next day. And yet, the Twisties invited us out for dinner at Kunang-Kunang. A chance for good company over food, I wouldn't pass it up, even of there was an exam the next day. As long as I got enough rest and enough studying in before tomorrow, I should be a-ok.

So we went . It was a nice dinner with the dudettes and dude. Too bad we had to go home after because of the exam :P


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I can only look back and wonder again and again. I'm not looking for something I should have done differently; hell no. As much as I was taken by surprise, I wouldn't change it for the world. This is the kind of surprise that takes you and turns your life around, and makes you see another side of life. This here, is my looking the point in where the dominoes began to fall into place. To see what leads to that pinnacle where I decided to turn. Because, it's always interesting to understand the history of things. Especially my own history. Our history.

Love,
Linzy

Saturday, March 28, 2009

95 Questions...

...for my idle hands to type out answers.

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1. Who is your best boy friend?
- My Encik Sedil; both in terms of boy friend and boyfriend :)

2. If someone were to tell you they like you right now, would you care?
- Aaaw, that's really flattering, but I'm happily taken. So I have to say, no, I don't care.

3. Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
- Fell hardest for? I'm still with him right now :)

4. Where did you last sleep other than your house?
- Last month at my Aunty Zah's house when my aunt was sick and was in ICU in DSH.

5. Do you have a best friend?
- Not just one one best friend. I have many good friends.

6. Do you smoke?
- Sinus and cigarettes don't mix; so no, I don't and have never tried, even.

7. Do you remember what you were like when you were a kid?
- Self-sufficient, had my head in the clouds, a Miss Know-all, thinks way too much, read too much, well liked and loved, tomboy-ish, and a natural born leader, if I say so myself :p

8. Can you vote for the next election?
- I can; but could care even less and less and less...

9. What are you listening to?
- Leef (Live) by Sarah Bettens

10. When will your next kiss be?
- Hopefully soon ;)

11. Who do you want to see right now?
- Encik Sedil

12. Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
- Uuuh...what qualifies as a sleepover? I remember Elwyn always sleeping over when we were kids.

13. When did your last hug take place?
- What kinda hug we talkin' bout here? Had one from my family members not too long ago.

14. Do you date smart people?
- They're the only ones I even consider dating.

15. Where were you at 2:02pm this afternoon?
- Taking my antibiotics in my bedroom.

16. What does the last text in your phone says?
- To or from? To: Something to Encik Sedil. From: Something from CIMB Bank.

17. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
- Just the regular smilies.

18. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
- Yep, many times. I especially remember that time with Encik Sedil, Lina and Yumi in the car when we were on the way to Sungai Pusu.

19. Who did you last eat with?
- My family.

20. Do you text a lot?
- Yes. Most of the time I am not in a convenient situation to have conversations on the phone, so I prefer texting.

21. How old will you be in 13 months?
- 24 and 4 months, approximately.

22. When is the last time you tattooed?
- Last week, with a felt pen.

23. If you like that person, will you talk about your feelings or hide them?
- A little of both. I talk about my feelings because I feel comfortable with them and sometimes hide it because I don't want them to think of me in a bad way.

24. Do you wear glasses?
- Used to...haven't in a long time. Although I think I would need them again soon. I wonder whether my company covers that...? Cos my line of work requires me to stare at the monitor for hours on end and my eyesight will definitely soon deteriorate.

25. What are you looking forward to in the next month?
- Hehe...The mark of our first year together :))

26. Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
- Definitely, yes.

27. What colour shirt are you wearing?
- Pink. I don't know why, for a person who likes blue and used to be known to be the one wearing blue, I've been buying/wearing a lot of pink lately.

28. Do you have a reason to smile right now?
- Always.

29. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first ?
- Wow, I don't know. An iPhone, maybe? Or a new laptop...? Or a vacation would be nice, too.

30. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? What was it about?
- My Encik Sedil...it was just our daily hellos, just for the sake of hearing his voice.

31. Who was driving the last car you were in?
- My father.

32. Who was the last person that called you?
- My mother.

33. What are you craving right now?
- My Encik Sedil. Oh wait, were we talking about food? Oh, then it's Salmon sashimi :p

34. What if you married the last person you kissed?
- I'd be the happiest person ever :)

35. What are you excited about?
- The next time I get to see my Encik Sedil.

36. Ever kissed your number 1 on Facebook?
- Number 1? What is a number 1 on Facebook?

37. When was the last time you cried? And why?
- A few nights ago. I was sick and my head hurt and I was lonely. I just felt like it.

38. Ever kissed someone who's name starts with an A?
- Asdil!

39. Is there one person who can make you feel better no matter what?
- See above ^

40. Last person you hugged?
- Uuh...I think I answered this already. It was one of my family.

41. What were you doing at 2:00 am last night?
- Woke up in the middle of the night to switch off the lamp in the corner.

42. Have you cried today ?
- No.

43. What bed did you sleep in last night ?
- The bed in the back room of my house in Seremban. I needed the air-cond.

44. Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
- Ermmm...not really.

45. Ever talked to someone that was high?
- According to my sources, yes...I didn't know it at the time, but it crossed my mind that he might have been.

46. Does it snow where you live?
- Nope.

47. When is the next time you will see your grandma?
- Insyaallah, sometime in the next few months.

48. Have you kissed or hugged someone today ?
- I don't think I have. I've been having a rather gloomy day and have been rather detached and unapproachable.

49. Will you be married in the next two years ?
- I've no such plans as of yet. But never say never.

50. Have you ever wanted someone you thought that you couldn't have?
- Yeah. It doesn't really matter now.

51. Are you in a relationship, single, complicated, married, or engaged?
- In a relationship!

52. How have you felt today ?
- A little moody, and gloomy, and heartsick.

53. Do you like your name?
- It's a part of loving oneself. So, definitely.

54. Are you happy at the moment?
- I am happy. But I could be happier.

55. What were you doing at 10:00pm last night ?
- Taking my antibiotics while waiting for food at a restaurant and feeling very moody.

56. Last person who drove you somewhere (besides your parents) ?
- Juliana, who drove me to the clinic and then back home last week.

57. Ever kissed someone in a closet?
- Closet closet closet...? I don't recall...but maybe ;)

58. Do you live alone ?
- Nope, with three student housemates (2 MMU students, 1 Lim Kok Wing student).

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
- Several. Alfred, Idzaid, Hamzah, Raqib.

60. Are you crazy ?
- I would be lying if I said no. I am barking mad.

61. Who was the last person to call you 'babe'?
- None that I can think of.

62. How has this past week been for you?
- Tiring, painful, stressed out and lonely, and just needing love and company.

63. Last thing you drank ?
- Warm water.

64. Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason?
- Yes, it happens the way it does because of our choices and actions, and the reason it does is that we should take what we can from it so we can either learn from it and do better as time goes by.

65. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
- I forgive and forget easily; so if it is nothing major that I will remember, yeah, I'll forgive.

66. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you want to be?
- A mermaid, maybe...? I was gonna say Siren, but they are lonely, destructive creatures.

67. What do you normally order when you're at McDonald's?
- Double Cheeseburger McValue Meal! Bring on the cheese!

68. Last book you read?
- The Girl in the Picture

69. Describe your mood.
- A little gloomy. But otherwise, usually upbeat and positive.

70. Describe the last time you were injured?
- Uuh...this week, I somewhat sprained my ankle due to some impromptu jogging.

71. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
- Fidzy

72. Rock concert or symphony?
- Rock concert, preferably K's Choice, or the Goo Goo Dolls, or maybe Tori Amos.

73. Do you like taking the LRT?
- I'm so used to them that I hardly feel it anymore. But I like watching the various people you meet on them.

74. If you could only use a form of transportation, what would it be?
- A car. I wanna drive my car now. Please, pretty please?

75. What's your favorite kind of cake?
- Cheese. Or maybe carrot & walnut.

76. Look 20 degrees to your left, what do you see?
- A very messy table top.

77. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
- Yes, I do.

78. Do you buy your own groceries?
- Occasionally, yes. Mainly cos I don't have the luxury to go on my own, and I mostly go grocery shopping with family.

79. What's your favorite fruit?
- Rambutans? Or apples, maybe? Or is it honeydew? Or watermelon? I dunno...I don't think I have a favourite.

80. Do you like running long distances?
- Not at the moment. I am too out of shape.

81. Have you ever eaten snow?
- I think I have, yes.

82. What colours are your bedsheet?
- Different shades of blue.

83. Do you hate someone very badly at this moment?
- I don't hate. So I don't think so, no. Or just my reviewer....just a teensy bit, just right now.

84. Do you watch Spongebob?
- Definitely! In fact, he lives in my room, and Ash doesn't like him :p

85. What temperature is it outside right now?
- Windy, but humid, nonetheless.

86. Do you consider yourself smart?
- If you don't mind me saying, yes I do.

87. How many piercings do you have?
- Three on each ear.

88. What language do you speak at home?
- Rojak.

89. How do you feel about your family?
- Dysfunctional. For the most part, they are affectionate, unconditionally loving, nurturing and ever concern; but occasionally, they can grate on my nerves. I am just one person; and cannot be pulled every which way and that.

90. What time did you go to bed yesterday?
- 12.00am. I was tired and just wanted to sleep after a long day.

91. What CD is currently in your CD player?
- The Beekeeper from Tori Amos

92. What do you want for Christmas this year?
- It's not so much about Christmas, it's about my 24th birthday... And I want those who matter with me on that day; like last year. Don't care much for presents if the people I care about the most are by my side.

93. Favorite ice-cream?
- Green tea

94. What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
- This is Malaysia, and usually they pronounce everything baku, and yet, when it comes to my name which is clearly pronounced the way it is spelt; some people pronounce it: Hezlin, Hazeline, Hezrin, Hezelin, Hizlin, Haz-line etc. It's annoying.

95. Lastly, whats your favourite colors?
- Blue, Red, Black, Pink.

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Phew, finally I'm done.

Do go ahead and copy+paste and answer them should you have nothing better to do, like myself.

Love,
Linzy

94 Out of 242 Movies

Tagged by Anis. I forewarn you, I'm no movie buff and I generally find mainstream movies not to my liking (i.e. chick flicks, comedies, romance); so many on this here list are partly accidental viewings or cos I was dragged to watch it, or cos I was bored. Hence, barely half of the titles are marked with an X. Yes, I have no life when it comes to movies. Mostly cos I spend mine elsewhere. My choice of movies are eccentric at best, and hence, not easy to find.

So, yeah, I've only watched 94 outta 242.

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Mark the ones you've seen. There are 242 movies on this list. Copy this list mail, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the movies you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun!

() Rocky Horror Picture Show *Great songs from this musical...have yet to watch it.
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest *The second and third weren't really worth watching, in my opinion.
() Boondock Saints
() Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story *a childhood favourite
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane

Total: 4

() The Princess Bride
() AnchorMan
() Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth *My favourite movie as a kid. Watched it a million of times. But David Bowie as the Goblin King in tights was just plain scary.
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
() White Noise
(x) White Oleander *One of the best written books I've ever read. Not the story itself, but the way it's written.
() Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates *not particularly a movie I would watch, but it was ok lah.
(x) The Princess Diaries *the first one was ok, but the second might as well have been called 'The Search for a Prince Most Suitable to Scr*w the Royal Virgin' :p
() The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total so far: 10

(x) Scream
() Scream 2
() Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie *it took me about 5 years or more to finally watch this movie. Mostly because I hear so many people making reference to scenes I know jack about. Watched it once just to be in the loop. I mostly was disgusted by it. Jokes like this are just tasteless.
()Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp

Total so far: 12

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Harry Potter 5
(x) Resident Evil 1
() Resident Evil 2
() The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total so far: 20

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
() The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
() White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect *This one I enjoyed very much.
(x) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
() Robots

Total so far: 26

() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events *Went to see this with Fidzy's family one night all those years ago
() Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
() KingPin
() Never Been Kissed
() Meet The Parents
() Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
() Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG *Took me a few years to actually get around to watching this movie, and it was nicely done.

Total so far: 29

() A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie *Gasp* Yes, I did watch this movie, but I was dragged there.
() Passport to Paris
() Dumb & Dumber
() Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
() Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2 *went to see this movie with Fidzy when she came down to Seremban to visit.
() Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber *went to watch this movie cos my brother wanted to

Total so far: 38

() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle *watched parts of this one day when I was bored
(x) Practical Magic *watched a little of this, read the book years later, then watched it properly. The book and movie complimented one another. There were parts that were better in the book than the movie and vice versa.
() Chicago
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
() Hellboy
() Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards

Total so far: 40

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play *As a kid, I never played with dolls. But someone once gave me a Chucky-sized doll on a birthday, and I was damn freaked out by it. Chucky used to scare the hell outta me.
() Seed of Chucky
() Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
(x) Gothika *I watched this with the BENdits...that time when Zeph was talking about her crap while she was in the loo just before the movie started.
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street *when I watched this as a kid, I got so scared to sleep.
() Sixteen Candles
() Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
() The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
() Son Of The Mask

Total so far: 47

() Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2 *Watched this with some of the BENdits, I think.
() Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Seven
() Ocean's Eleven
() Ocean's Twelve
() Bourne Identity
() Bourne Supremecy
(x) Bourne Ultimatum *My aunt and uncle insisted on watching this, even if I never watched the first two.
() Lone Star
() Bedazzled
(x) Predator I *Grew up watching Arnie movies with my uncle as a kid, this one was my favourite out of the many.
() Predator II
() The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Curious George

Total so far: 52

(x) Independence Day *Watched this with just my mom one day.
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
() My Boss' Daughter
() Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds *One of the best movies I watched that year; in a long time, even.
() Rush Hour
() Rush Hour 2
() Rush Hour 3

Total so far: 56

() Best Bet
() How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
() She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(x) Ever After *watched it for the first time when I was in MCIIUM.
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump *One of the best movies ever.
() Big Trouble in Little China
() The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2 *the only onne worth watching out of the three.
() The Terminator 3

Total so far: 60

(x) X-Men
(x) X-Men 2
(x) X-Men 3
() Spider-Man *Tobey Maguire=not a fan.
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High *Watched this because I had to teman my siblings...
(x) Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
() The Skulls
() Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
() The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total so far: 72

() Swimfan
() Miracle on 34th street
() Old School
() The Notebook
() K-Pax
() Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
() Ice Castles
() Boogeyman
() The 40-year-old-virgin

Total so far: 73

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark *grew up watching Indie and have always loved him
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of Crystal Skull *fourth one was a disappointment, though.

Total so far: 80

() Baseketball
(x) Hostel *watched the first 10 minutes, then DVD went dead. Watched the rest when I found another DVD just to know what it was about. It's torture porn, to be blunt.
() Waiting for Guffman
() House of 1000 Corpses
() Devils Rejects
() Elf
() Highlander
() Mothman Prophecies
() American History X
() Three

Total so Far: 81

(x) The Jacket
() Kung Fu Hustle
() Shaolin Soccer
() Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
() Monty Python and the Holy Grail
() Shaun Of the Dead
() Willard

Total so far: 84

() High Tension
() Club Dread
() Hulk
() Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook *One of my favourite Robin Williams movie
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later *have always thought being alone is the scariest thing ever.
() Orgazmo
() Phantasm
() Waterworld

Total so far: 87

() Kill Bill vol 1
() Kill Bill vol 2
() Mortal Kombat
() Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
() the Hills Have Eyes
() I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
() The Last House on the Left
() Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness

Total so far: 88

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
() Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith *I dunno why I've never watched this last one.
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope *My uncle loved Star Wars, so grew up watching them over and over.
(x)Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
() Ewoks Caravan Of Courage *I loved the Ewoks cartoon.
() Ewoks The Battle For Endor

Total so far: 93

() The Matrix *yes, I've never watched a single Matrix movie. Something happened when I wanted to that put me off.
() The Matrix Reloaded
() The Matrix Revolutions
() Animatrix
() Evil Dead
() Evil Dead 2
() Team America: World Police
() Red Dragon
() Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal *watched cos I was bored and had nothing else to watch.

RESULT: 94

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Dear Bed

Hello, Bed.

Remember me?

Oh you know, the one you don't see in the day. Only all night til the morning's light that you have my weight upon you. And yet today, oddly I am here.

Well you see, Bed, after leaving the soft comfort of your pillow-y embrace, I left for work as usual. But you see, I was already feeling that light-headedness and nausea even before I left the room. I thought it would have receded when I get to my office and have my usual cup of honey+oats cereal drink.

As it turns out, when I got to my space on that fourth floor of FSBM, I knew that anything I chug down would come back up for sure. So I didn't dare have a single bite and continued work as per usual. But soon, I get this weird sensation in my tummy like little monsters are having a fight in there, and my migraine was playing merry hell with my head. And after several minutes intervals, I somewhat retch, like I was about to throw up.

I tried to bear with it and go on with the day. But I couldn't focus on anything and was just feeling like I wanted to sink to the floor and lie down. In my line of work, being like that rendered me useless. I couldn't concentrate, thus I cannot edit. I decided to ask for the rest of the day off and thankfully, my TL gave me the greenlight.

Juliana took me to the clinic and the doctor told me my situation after prodding my tummy and pressing on certain points in my head:

I definitely have food poisoning which is causing me to throw up and purge and have headaches. To add to my suffering, I do have migraines which is made worse by my poisoning induced headaches. And, to top it all of, I have sinus, which ups the pain and aggravation of headaches and migraines all the more. So I was sent home with a bag load of medication (I suspect that since I am covered under my company's insurance, they take advantage of that...). After eating a bowl of kuey tiaw in gravy that Juliana helped me buy and downing the many types of meds, I looked to you.

Which brings me here right now at a very odd time, Bed. But I just really really need the comfort of being able to lay down while I nurse myself back to health. My head is hurting, my tummy's doing a dance it never practiced for, and I wanna throw up; I'm not gonna be able to actually take care of myself much, but at least you can do half the trick. I wish I could be with my family or better, have my Encik Sedil to keep me company; but I couldn't, so I know I can count on you.

So thank you, Bed. I know you've seen many of my adventures in these 2 months, but I am glad that you are always there to support me.

Love,
Hazlin

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

War

This feels like war.
Incessant.
Inescapable.
Constant.
Unfair.
Unnecessary.
For what?
I thought waters flow beneath your bridge.

Sweet Rainy Morning

My morning started off rainy.

It still is.

The shade the rainclouds bring cast shadows over what would usually be a bright, sunny setting. It softens the mood to a mellowness that is best spent languidly in a place that is not bright and professional, with desks and chairs with rollers. No, it's best spent in places like, oh let's say, a bed.

The sudden illumination of lightning gives off a white-hot glow in the dark horizon I see through the glass windows that my cubicle faces. A contradiction to the coldness of the rain falling. The sudden flash of thunder that follows about 20-one thousand counts later breaks the monotony of the quiet rain, and the sudden gust of wind plays the percussion with the raindrops it throws against the glass.

How I wish I was in bed, under the covers yet with minimal coverage on, curled up against pillows, snuggled up and... I can't go ahead and keep on fantasising, I'll never get any work done. Not that I have any work at the moment; in fact I have only training at 10am, but theoretically, no work can get done with me thinking of getting to doing other things...hmmm.

It's just one of those mornings. I'm just not in the mood to be in the office. Coupled with the fact that times like these, a good cuddle is in order. The perfect remedy for rainy mornings. And I've been having cameos of a certain someone in my thoughts after 1 month+ of separation. Encik Sedil, where are you...?

Anyhow, duty calls. As much as I would love to continue with my fantasy here as my eyes glazedly follow the words on screen, Charles awaits in the training room. Hmmm...why can't it be someone else? *sigh*

Love,
Linzy

Monday, March 23, 2009

Currently

Right now:

  • I'm thinking I probably pulled a muscle somewhere in my leg. I am superbly out of shape (goes without saying) and my limbs are rusty from the lack of use. My sudden inspiration to have a jog after work today, despite some warm-ups, is causing my limbs to ache. Oh, and the fact that I was playing some games on the Wii yesterday ain't helping any.
  • I am very hungry, but it's late and I don't have anything good to eat in the fridge.
  • I am calculating my expenses to make sure that my blogshopping hasn't gotten out of hand. I probably need to chill for a bit. I still need that dress, though :p
  • My skin is a little hot from getting heating gel on my skin.
  • My room is a bloody tongkang pecah. I've been too tired to pick after myself. Will begin sprucing tomorrow.
  • I am feeling rather devilish ;)
  • I am sending a Pokemon e-card to my baby sister whose birthday is tomorrow.
  • I am still very very hungry...and thinking of getting meself that pizza I've been wanting. Classified Chicken, you're gonna be mine very very soon.
  • I can't move my legs right cos they feel rather stiff...
  • I'm thinking of how my office will be soon swamped by parcels for myself. Hehehe...all the stuff I've been buying are being sent to my office's address. Ooh, I'm looking forward to that.
  • I'm thinking I should be getting to bed very soon. Tomorrow ABAG comes in, and I wanna be ready for Denise's usual prattle that she sends to me in text form all the way from Australia. Lucky me...not.
  • I am feeling a little lonely...very very, in fact. I miss so many people. And MMU being on their one-week term break, hence no housemates, isn't helping any.
  • I miss my Encik Sedil so very very excruciatingly much. Haven't seen him in over a month and it's driving me crazy.
  • I feel like I need to reconnect with people; lest they forget me.
Love, Linzy~

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Welcome to the Tame Life of Linzy

Copied from my Encik Sedil's FB note.

Yes, I've lived a very tame life. Boring, you might say... But that's what happens when your father is very very conscious of safety and constantly reminds you about it, and being the person I am who only occasionally takes risks cos I don't see the need to.

So, out of the list:

I've done 67 out of the 132 stupid things.

Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
() Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
() Drank Alcohol

SO FAR:

Level 2
(x) Are/Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone/Something Die

SO FAR: 7

Level 5
() Had/Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
() Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 8

Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 9

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 12

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (MTB race!)
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 16

Level 9
() Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging *in Australia, circa 1991
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School *nothing new...I do it often :p

SO FAR: 20

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
() Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 21

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
() Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 24

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 25

Level 13
() Had/Have Braces
() Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
() Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 25

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
() Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 28

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 33

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 38

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
() Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 40

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

SO FAR: 43

Level 19
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 45

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
() Swore at the teacher, in front of them
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 46

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
() Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 48

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
() Done/Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 51

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been in a tree house.
(x) Been scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 53

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Than 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 54

Level 26
(x) Played Chicken
() Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
() Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 56

Level 27
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one *I'm referring to the latter, thank you very much
(x) Caught A Butterfly
() Laughed So Hard You Cried
() Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 58

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
() Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
() Tried to hurt yourself *wanted to, but never did

SO FAR: 60

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
() Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
() Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 63

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 67

Level 32
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
() Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

TOTAL : 67

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Poisoned

Sometime after breakfast yesterday with Juliana, just when I was contemplating donating blood for the blood drive at the lobby of my office, I started feeling this dull ache in my noggin. I haven't those in a while, so I just dismissed it as being one of those days when I get them sudden bouts of low-blood pressure induced lightheadedness. But towards lunchtime, the sensation intensified, and after tapauing food from the Terminal with Juliana and Ann and then proceeding to eat at the ePub, I started feeling worse.

As soon as the three of us dispersed and went back to our respective cubicles, the throbbing in my cranium has amped up several notches and I couldn't do anything about it. That's the thing with headaches, there's no amount of massaging that could assuage the pain that is deep inside. And it was hurting like hell.

I'm no stranger to migraines, since my blood pressure tends to be on the low side at times, it's something that I used to get quite often. Used to. Especially back in school, when I hardly drank a drop for that first half of the day, I'd be in pain later. There was also that one time when I was still in MCIIUM, I was suddenly wracked with intense pain one day in Ramadhan, that I had to be given a shot and a special pill. But that was years ago; and I haven't had such intese headaches til now.

I got some Panadols from Juliana, but it didn't help any. Not a single bit. The next thing I know, I was kneeling on the bathroom floor next to the toilet bowl cos I couldn't stop hurling. I was just so sick and needed to get everything out of my system. Thankfully, it was time to go home by the time I was done.

When I went back, I just needed to close my eyes and sleep. And so I did, despite my parents just being about half an hour away. When they arrived and called, and I was getting up, I honestly felt like dying. I was paralysed and it felt like every part of me just decided to give up on me. My parents had to rush me to the nearest clinic which was at the Streetmall. I was given a shot and was given some medication and this one, solitary pill which is supposed to relax me.

The doctor's prognosis was that I probably got a combination of food poisoning and a dose of migraine from stress. I don't know, because it was a leisurely day and my conscience was clear. But I do believe that it is possible that the food poisoning was the cause of the intense head pains. Perhaps my body rejected the intake so bad that it went to my head. I don't know for sure, but I do know that it was excruciating. Even the next day, I was still throwing up and the like.

And here I am thinking, what caused it? My thoughts turned to the memory of a very foul tasting coconut inti (filling) in the kuih dadar I bought at the terminal that morning. That definitely could be the reason. But who'd have thought that a single bite could be so severe? I dunno, but I'm sure not to eat there again.

The culprit?

*Kuih dadar is the one on the left

Love,

Linzy~

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Word Associations

It's amazing how a single word can invoke so much emotion and memories that come flooding just as suddenly as the blood that rushes to my cheeks. It takes me by surprise and on a sudden rollercoaster ride of memories that leaves me breathless and flushed. I become awkward, and become aware of my sudden grinning for no apparent reason.

I am delightfully delighted at the oddest places, at the oddest times when a word is thrown against the door of my well guarded memories. They come tumbling and gushing forth like a force that just invites in everything else to invade upon me. The doors are open and I can't close them both at the same time. So I stand at the doorway and let the tide take me. And I don't mind.

Because every word reminds me of the that time when, and that thing during, and when that occurred. It reminds me of a word in a sentence once uttered, a description of something done, or a time and place remembered. And they make me smile--wide.

And it's just because everything reminds me of you.

Yours,
N.e.Q

A Haunting

Here I am. Just a week and a half shy from working at WKESP for two months. So far it has been good. It's been tough going through learning things you had no knowledge of and then having to apply it in such a short span. I hardly had the time to really understand it. But it's ok, after all, nothing comes free; so you just gotta work for it til you get it. And at least I have my fellow teammates who are ever helpful and ready to impart their knowledge.

But nothing prepared me for this. The work that I had to bring home the other night is the one I am still working on. It just hates me so. It's a very very long commblock--maybe you can say chapter in a way--with many many subchapters within it. So what I'm dealing with here is a very very long file that needs editing.

That's not the problem, cos it's doable, and it's what I signed up for anyway. But what happens is that, after editing every single thing (apart from grammar; punctuation, format, html taggings, linking etc.), it will either :
a) shut down by itself
b) tell me it is corrupted when I try to open it, or
c) tell me I did something wrong and it needs to shut down.
Either way it chooses to torment me, it will all mean one thing:
Every single change/editing that I have done would be gone, gone, GONE!

So for the past few days, I have been furiously retyping, re-editing, re-linking and everything else. I even went to work an hour early to rectify the blunder. It's frustrating, really. I have a deadline to meet, and being new, I didn't want to seem like I wasn't making an effort; but the bloody commblock was making it so hard for me. I also had to send it in for review to make sure I have done everything correctly and have spotted every mistake, which would take up more time I didn't have. So I sent it in, telling my reviewer that I had to skip the little things first, cos I needed it in a hurry; and he should just check the grammar first and I will work the details later to save time. But what do I get when he sends in the review report? He tells me that I did not notice the double spacings, did not check punctuation etc etc. WTH? I just told him I couldn't cos of limited time and the bloody software was not being cooperative.

Fuming and seething with anger and frustration, I got to doing it all over again. Despite this last step of the job, I still went through hell putting in the last changes and accepting the previous changes. It still shut down on me every now and then and told me it was corrupted at certain points. *sigh* It was really just testing my patience.

At 5.30pm, still being at the office and still working on it without much success, I met my Team Leader in the washroom. She commented that I look tired, so I went into a tirade about what I was going through. And she told me that perhaps it was the 'haunted' commblock.

Haunted commblock?

Apparently, this commblock is quite notorious for having a million and one problems. It comes up with this crap all the time... And I bewilderedly sighed, why didn't anyone tell me???

At least I could have taken precautions and would know what to expect. At least I would be more careful and do things in a certain way to avoid running into the part where it shuts itself down. Why why why???

*sigh* But never mind. Too late now. Perhaps no-one expected it to happen again. Tomorrow I'll probably be done wrestling with it and I won't have to suffer again til next time. If only I knew sooner... Arghh!!!!

I felt like pulling my hair out.

I wanted to go out to watch a movie and unwind, but Ayus is busy tonight...just my luck.

Anyway, I need to get destress myself, so I am waiting for my Ares to finish downloading Slumdog Millionaire so that I can watch that instead. Was gonna order pizza all to myself, but decided not to (my health and wallet were the monkeys on my back telling me not to). So I shall just chew on my maple syrup oat clusters then.

Hopefully tonight I won't get haunted by commblock 680....

Love,
Haminudin

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Ayin & Ayus 2 : Food Misadventure 1

I just came back from Ayus', after eating a huge piece of meringue that she bought in Singapore whilst having lunch with Yasmin Ahmad. That was quite a story to tell while we were chowing down on that little mountain of egg white and sugar, topped with pistachios.

With Ayus, life is a non-stop eating spree.

And while she is enjoying every single bit of sinfully delicious foods that are laden with an abundance of sugar, fats, salt and everything else that you shouldn't have too much of; I'm here thinking, "Where the bloody hell does it all go to?"

I am not a person who cares much about weight. I care about health, yes (ocassionally when not blinded by yummylicious food); but I couldn't give a damn about what people think of my weight. I am who I am no matter how I look like. As long as I do not suffer from any health problems or can fit into the clothes I so love; I'm happy. I cannot stand it when I just happen to not be in the mood to have lunch that day, and someone says, "Diet ke?". Screw you. So what if I don't wanna eat? Does that automatically mean I'm on a diet? And so what if I am, or not? Why do you have to jump to conclusions about me not being happy being the way I am? Why do you have to jump to the conclusion that my dream is to be stick thin? I don't, cos I don't envy the look. It's stupid, really. Even worse are the type of people you just met or haven't seen in the longest time. The first thing they'll say after the pleasantries and all are, "Sihatnya..", which is a Malay euphemism for "My, you're fat..". I couldn't give a rat's ass. But it pisses me off how it is your physicality that is judged first before anything else. And later they'll be like, "Oh, I didn't expect you to have brains beneath all that fat". Seriously, people like these need to get a life.

Anyway, I digress. I believe I was talking about last night's eating adventure with Ayus.

I was tired yesterday. I went to work early, and I battled with my commblock that just had something against me. I was mentally tired and was lack of sleep. So I did the first thing I that would solve my problems: I lay down on my bed as soon as I got into my room, got undressed and washed my face. What was intended to be a short nap became a deep sleep; and the next thing I know, it was almost 9pm. I was groggy and had a minor migraine and felt bad for yet again sleeping through Maghrib.

Just as I checking my e-mail for updates on my latest online buys, Ayus called. Our brief, quickfire conversation went something like this:
Ayus: Oi, I'm hungry. Jom.
Ayin: I'm tired.
Ayus: I don't care.
Ayin: You go ahead.
Ayus: Come down.
Ayin: Huh?
Ayus: I'm already in front of Block C.
Ayin: F*ck. *
Ayus: Get dressed. We're waiting.
Ayin: Fine.
*click*
*I don't usually swear, but the moment just called for it.

So I put on my pants and t-shirt and headed down, half-disoriented. As soon as I got in the car, I was bombarded by Fairuz and Fairuz's argument about where to eat. Ayus was hungry and wanted something that was filling but light; in other words, a variety of finger food. And Fairuz wanted Sago Gula Melaka. So after much deliberation, me excluded as I was in no mood to eat, they headed to somewhere they have tried sago before.

Before I had any chance to ask where that 'somewhere' is, we turned the corner and was at Cyberview Lodge. Okaaay...was my thinking, both at the thoughts a) typical Ayus to want to eat at the weirdest places but can actually think I am weird for eating weird foods that she has never heard of i.e. paru goreng (Ayus, again, lemme reiterate; you'll find it in any Malay restaurant, it's you who is weird for not dining on Malay food regularly, you Western food freak :p), and b) when it the world did they come to Cyberview Lodge together..hmmmm.....that's a question for another day.

We parked and we walked in. There I was in scruffy jeans with a stain somewhere from some time ago and flip-flops. Ayus was in yoga gear, since she just got back from her class. And Fairuz was in what he termed as baju tidur aka jammies. Yeah, we were a classy bunch. We walked around and looked at the pool, where I promptly walked off after a toad came hopping after me (I've stayed at Cyberview before anyway, so I didn't really need to see the pool; so there), and then walked to the restaurant.

We entered and had a look at the menu, they didn't have sago gula melaka, and so we left. But Ayus saw something else on the menu that she wanted to try, so we turned back to the restaurant. An Indonesian girl who could barely speak English sat us down. Ayus ordered the Mozarella fritters that she wanted (so much for classy. Ordering fried cheese indeed :p), along with some bread rolls with butter, and some juice. I spotted this concoction that was supossedly for low blood, migraine and heaty bodies. Perfect.

When our orders arrived, in typical manner, we chowed on each others food; well, mostly Ayus' since she was the one who ordered. As I expected, the mozarella fritters were some gourmet version of BK's mozarella sticks. Except, that instead of the three you would get from BK, it was one piece that was cut into five squares, served with a thin slice of garlic bread and a dip. But heck, I preferred BK's; at least they taste cheesy there. The bread rolls were the usual with the butter and all, and the concoctions were just several juices from fruits combined. Lastly, Ayus wanted ice-cream. Ice cream in a hotel cafe? My guess? Just one little scoop. But Ayus was quite sure they'd serve it banana boat style with all the works, i.e. fruits, nuts and whipped cream on top. Well, she did get the fruit, whip cream and a chocolate roll, but the ice-cream was just a single, very very small scoop. *sigh*

We all shared gourmet ice-cream of which I could not remember the flavour, while I thought that Baskin Robbins would have assuaged an ice-cream craving for the same price. But nevermind. It's an experience to learn from anyway. When we were done, Ayus whipped out her credit card and payed for the meal. Well, thank you, Ayus; but I really do think we would have enjoyed a heartier meal if we splashed on our normal pizzas. Ah well.

Left for home, cos Ayus wanted to share the meringue she bought with me. So we got back to her place while Fairuz took off to go out with his friends. The meringue was as big as a guy's palm, and it was so hard to break to eat. But after some ketuking, I managed to break the Mount Fuji of a meringue. It was nice, if not for the after-guilt that I felt and the feeling like I might lose all my teeth the next day. Watched That 70s Show while we ate and surprised Ayus with a soalan cepumas that she did not answer...but if my usual reading into those words unsaid or words said and how they're said are in order, my suspicions are true....hmmmm.

Left Ayus' at 11.30pm cos I needed to get back to shower and get some sleep before I start another day at work.

Got back thinking that I was damn full from eating loads of junk. I don't usually do the junk eating, since I'd rather be eating proper; and will only chow on junk later if I wanted to. Hmmm...difference of lifestyles, I guess. But I might just call on Ayus for that pizza today after work. I can hear my tummy grumbling...

Really, I love food. There are so many flavours to try in this world and I want to enjoy them as much as I can. I cannot understand those who don't want to eat or can't eat. It's just weird to me. And I don't mind splashing a bit of money every now and then for some quality food. But not too often, and not for snacks. If I was gonna eat at a gourmet restaurant at a hotel, I'd have gone for a full-blown meal. And there are just some things you know you can get better for a lesser price. So sometimes I don't understand people who go to expensive restaurants by default, as well. I'm happy with nasi campur or mamak food or regular ice-cream from your local kedai runcit. I'm not stingy, but just practical. Expensive doesn't necessarily mean better, and sometimes it's just too much to pay anyway. So yeah, the food adventure with Ayus struck me as odd and unnecessary.

Hence, there ends another food adventure with Ayus. It's nothing much, just the cirsumstances that makes it all the weird. Anyhow, life's been weird since I moved to Cyberjaya. And I think it'll only get weirder.

:p *

*Here, I mean it as my usual smiley to express the ludicrous-ness I feel sometimes. But I have another story about this smiley, perhaps in another entry, if I remember.

Signing off,
Ayin

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

One Night Stand

I took my work home today, and it's bound to keep me busy all night long.

I'm having a one night stand with my work, and that's not a good thing. Especially knowing that if I really wanted that kind of attention, I could have a human alternative who is not unresponsive pieces of paper :p

I made my first blunder on the job that will surely teach me a lesson that I shall remember for as long as I will be working with Wolters Kluwer as a sub-editor. What I learned today was to check in my work every half an hour or so. Or in simpler terms, save your work every half an hour or so.

Miss Smarty Pants over here, not having experienced any malfunctions with the canggih system as of yet, did not save her work as often as she should. It did not really cross her mind. Tambah pulak they don't actually call it 'save', so automatically I did not think to 'save' my work; eventhough there was a somewhat similar function. Therefore, everything she was working on for the past three hours or so disappeared. It bloody disappeared! And the amount of work that she has gotten done would have amounted to 100+ pages if it was printed out. That's just a little bit, you say? True, it is not that much. But believe you me, when you have to look at it on a monitor screen for hours on end reading about Australian Tax, it takes longer than you might think. Proofreading very dry articles about tax needs rereading several times to grasp its meaning as well as to find suitable ways to change it. So yeah, very much longer.

If it was just me, then it wouldn't be much of a problem. But it is a teamwork thing, and I need it done asap to get it passed to the next person for the next step before publishing. Having this hold it back would eat up alot of time I do not have.

*sigh*

I was close to crying and/or pulling my hair out. It has been a very tiring day today with my having a slight case of migraine, so I did not need this kinda crap at 4pm, when I was just an hour away from home sweet home. But well, it's just one of those things....I've learned a very useful lesson today.

Always check-in. Otherwise you'll be having one night stands.

Anyhow, I am in for a night full of tax and fund. Don't you wish you were me? Not.

Linzy~

Monday, March 16, 2009

Lethargy, My Friend

Lethargy has become the annoying neighbour that drops in on you at the worst times possible. It maniacally rings the doorbell like girl scouts trying to make quota (Thanks, Anya). Its incessant ringing are dull thuds that, despite it being a pain, lulls me into compliance. It's hypnotizes me into doing its bidding...Ah, how weak I am.

I find myself falling into an uncharacteristic pattern of slumbering late in the afternoon after work. The dimming horizon casts a very soft glow in my bedroom that gives off a welcoming warmth that just begs for a lie in bed. And pretty soon, I'll find myself snoozing right up til dark.

It's not something of the usual. I never sleep during Maghrib. I've been taught not to. And when I do, it means that I am tired beyond my control, and nothing can wake me. And despite it being a very restful sleep, I wake up with a huge migraine, and the same-size guilt to boot. Those two make for un-best friends.

It's hard to fight off, that intoxicating lethargy that just tempts you to bed like a lover. It embraces you within the folds of a warm blanket and with the comfort of fluffy pilllows. It's just too much to turn away from sometimes.

And I have been tired. Looking at words and words and words on the screen mentally exhausts me. I love my job, and I enjoy doing it; and I appreciate it very very much that I have a job; but it taxes me in ways I didn't think I would. And the part of the day where I go home to an empty room doesn't make for the jollies to perk me up. Hence, sleeping the sleep.

I have managed to get out of that groove, though; by occupying my idle time with things like doing the laundry, vacuuming, sprucing up the room, watching videos and lately, talking for hours with my housemates, Jida especially. She'd be sitting on my bed laughing away, while I busy myself with folding clothes or putting stuff away. We actually can converse. I always worry that I can't talk to a person, but Jida is the type who can talk about anything under the sun, so it's pretty easy. We'll have a laugh and just talk about whatever comes to mind. So it's a good way to lure me out from the shade of sleepiness.

Sleep or none, I have to find a way to get active. This routine I've gotten into has me hardly making full use of my limbs, and my inactivity has made me sluggish and lazy. I need to get back into moving...and it doesn't help that my erratic eating habits (that is for another another post) has made me gain weight... So all the more reasons for me to get off my lazy ass and get a move on.

Anyhow, lethargy, I have got the better of you. I did not buy your girl scout cookies! Muahahahaha!

Love,
Linzy~

Friday, March 13, 2009

Outrageous Fashion Victim


So we have to come in for work today as Fashion Victims...

But what is a fashion victim exactly? Someone who goes to lengths to look good, even if the fashion was inconvenient and uncomfortable but still pulls it off? Or is it someone who wants to be so fashionable but ends up none at all? Or is it a fashion that is outrageous? Say, for example, goth or punk etc? Or is it someone who mismatches everything in trying to fuse every fashion possible?

I have no idea.

Being no fashionista myself, I've no idea what's hot or not. I like clothes, yes, but like Ash says about me, I play it safe. I wear what I feel comfortable in and what is less risky or risque. So I didn't know which ways to go.

So this is what I have on today:

Striped light blue jeans+white baby tee+pink flowery blazer+straw hat (the one that you told me to take off in Langkawi, Sayang)+bright red jelly shoes+every piece of jewelry I have with me. It sounds more outrageous than it actually is...It's quite tame, really. But I don't know how I fare in people's eyes.

Anyway, coming into the office, I noticed that hardly anyone is being outrageous. It's getting me worried. Just a handful of people are actually in some getup, including me. So I feel a little ridiculous.

But I don't know. My teammate mentioned that there will be a general assembly today, so that's when everyone will change into their outfits. So for now, everyone's on the downlow. Not sure why. Maybe it's cos they didn't wanna embarass themselves on the way to work earlier. Or maybe cos it's essentially a competition, they didn't want anyone tiru-ing their look.

Anyhow, let's see how it'll go later. Will post up pictures if I get any.

So for now, happy being Fashion Victims fellow WKESPers.

Love,
Hazlin

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

By any other name...

...would smell as sweet?

Well, maybe. But might be defined in many unsavoury ways.

Yanna tagged me for this one. I'm not gonna do this on Facebook cos the sudden influx of notes with people tagging people is getting a bit much. Not that I don't like reading them; but it's just that there are so many that by the time I have the time to read the one from the last time I was online, there would be a new one in its place. Hence, best I just not let mine get lost in the crowd and just put those here wher it'd be easier for me to read and refer to. Besides, Facebook is losing its flavour with me, the clutter and the applications are getting the better of it.

So anyway, here goes:

Go to [Urban Dictionary] and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the definition it gives you.

1. Your name?

- Lin

Obviously, the possibility of having Hazlin in their entry is very slim, so I went for the best alternative:

Usually a chinese last name belonging mainly to Taiwanese people. The name is also the first name of many chinese people and some chinese people also have this as their first name as well as last as other chinese people.

Wow...what a smart definition Jessica123.

2. Age?

- 23

The greatest number of all time.

Reasons why: It is...

1. a prime number, as are 2 and 3.
2. Michael Jordan's number.
3. the NBA record for most consecutive points scored by a single player in a game, done by none other than Michael Jordan.
4. the number of chromosomes in a human sperm or egg.
5. the angle between the earth's magnetic and rotational axis.
6. the Tropic of Cancer at 23 degrees N Latitude.
7. the Tropic of Capricorn at 23 degrees S Latitude.
8. a .com/website and the page is very cryptic.
9. the most quoted Psalm in the bible ("The Lord is my shepherd...")
10. the number of people executed in "A Tale of Two Cities"
11. the smallest number of people for which there is at least a 50% chance that two will share the same birthday.
12. the standard TCP/IP port for Telnet.
13. one of the "Lost" numbers on the television show....also the sum of two of the other numbers (8 & 15)and the solution to 42-15-4=23, all of which are also Lost numbers.
14. the number of times Caesar was stabbed in Shakespeare's Julius Caesar.
15. has been prominently featured in the following: Serendipity, Futurama, Star Wars A New Hope, Monty Python The Life of Brian, Seinfeld, The Big Lebowski, The Matrix Reloaded, and Die Hard III among MANY MANY other movies.
16. the number of flavors Dr. Pepper claims to be a blend of.
17. the number of distinct orientations of Tetris pieces.
18. the sum of U2, the greatest band ever. U is the 21st letter of the alphabet + 2 = 23
19. the number of letters in the latin alphabet.
20. the number of the Illuminati.
21. the letter W in the english alphabet, a letter with 2 points down and 3 points up.
22. the smallest number of integer sided boxes that tile a box such that no two boxes share a common length.
23. the only US president to serve between nonconsecutive terms of another president (23rd president Benjamin Harrison serving between Grover Cleveland's terms).

3.One of your friends?

- Ash

Ok, just like my name, it's not likely I'd find definitions for my friends' names like, Ayus/Fairuz, Fidzy/Hafidzah, Aaina, Iylia...Oh, you get the picture. So I went with my (boy)friend's name, instead. Heh :p

Ok, there were too many to choose from, so I couldn't help picking out more than one.

  • Main character in the American version of the anime, Pokemon. I am guessing that Ash's mother was smoking weed when she named him. When she tried to think of a name, she looked all around, and then looked at her joint, and then Ash popped into mind. Anyway, Ash is the main character in Pokemon (except for a couple of Japanese series). His dream is to become a "Pokemon Master", whatever that is, and "Catch 'em all." How he will manage to catch all 493 Pokemon, God only knows. But for now, his signature Pokemon are Pikachu, Charizard, and Squirtle. - defined by kylezors
  • Coined by Drew Preiner, it simply means "friend".
  • Hero of the Evil Dead Series. Has a Chainsaw for his right hand and carrys a double-barrelled shotgun.
  • sexy, hot, oozing beauty, rare kind gentleman. :p

4. What should you be doing?


- Working

No , I'm not slacking off. It's just that my product hasn't been sent in yet by my Australian editors...so I'm waiting.

  • A term to describe the tedious and boring indentured servitude that most people are forced to endure to get money. Generally, not a pleasant experience.
  • The opposite of EA Games.

5. Favorite colour?

- Blue

The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between green and indigo, evoked in a human observer by radiant energy with wavelengths of approximately 420 to 490 nanometers.

6. Favorite number?

- 7

The number that ate 9. All the other numbers are scared of him.

7. Month of your birthday?

- December

The month in which the hottest women are born.
Enough said.

8. Last person you talked to?

- Ibu

Abbreviation of 'Ibuprofen'. Usually uttered when the speaker is too tired/lazy/hungover to complete the word.
e.g.: "Oh man, my head hurts. Pass me that ibu over there."

9. One of your nicknames?

- Linzy

A name initially coined by my BENdits in MCIIUM, namely Julia and Anis. At first, it was spelled Lin-Z, and later evolved to LinZ, then LinZy. Later on used by those closest to me in IIUM.

  • the awesomest hottest girl ever to live. A girly bad ass who thinks sex and love are what make the world go round. Hmmm...I'd like to test that theory.
  • a large bird shaped mammal found in fiji's lakes. They live off of peanut butter only & drink swiss brandy whilst swimming through pineapples.

Love,

Linzy

This time, Last year...ep.3

The previous night before the 11th of March 2008...

...had Ash merajok-ing after something we said while we were hanging at McDonald's, Karak highway petrol station. So he stalked off like a 'Voucher' ('Vulture', but Lina mispronounced it) to Burger King, which was just behind McDonald's. When he came back, he had a plastic bag-ful of goodies which included them delicious mozarella sticks. Me being the cheese lover that I am fell so in love with it, as did Yumi. Yup, we knew we'd be back for more of that.

So the next day, I had my usual classes early in the morning, which was Islamic Aqidah and EAP mass lectures; and then went back up to the room for some shut-eye before my next class at 2pm.

Just before class, I'd go down and have lepak with the Twisties a while. Yumi asked me whether I wanted to get more of those yummy mozzarella cheesesticks. But of course! So we planned to go after our 2pm classes, which would end at about 3.30pm. While in class, got a message from Ash asking whether we wanted to go to a hockey match. I said it was up to Yumi, if she wanted to, sure. Yumi said ok, so after class, we went to get cheesesticks, went back to the room/home to change, then Yumi came back to pick me, Ash, Ayu and her friend (for the life of me, I can't seem to remember her name) up to go to Bukit Jalil.

Went to Bukit Jalil, while the three went around to get a better view (and since they knew the kids from facilitating their English camp the last time, they had all reason to go and meet the hockey players) while Yumi and I enjoyed the view from the bleachers :p I mean there were guys running around and Yumi and I just...well, took in the sights. They were just there, ok... And Yumi was making comments about...erm, certain characteristics of theirs that she found interesting to watch. Heheh.

Anyway, it was fun. After the kids played, the Malaysian hockey team came out and Yumi and I enjoyed that even more... Especially Yumi who liked this one particular dude... I forgot his name; but Ash told me once :p

Later, we all had dinner at Bangi Kopitiam. Ayu bought us dinner that night cos she just got her pay for a part time job she was doing...

Which reminds me, I miss Ayu. Towards the end of my last semester, I spent quite some time with her. She slept at my room and we worked on some assignments together and I helped with hers. I hope she's doing great now.

Anyway... this will mark a sudden rise in our outings together; meaning Yumi, Ash and I. The weeks following will see our sudden penchant for just driving around, just the three of us. Which I suppose, will escalate to the point. This incident, being the first.




Love,

Linzy

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

The X-Fools

I guess my teammates were not kidding when they told me a certain editor that we work with, who shares a surname with the renowned Fox 'Spooky' Mulder, is a little out of this world; thus she is dubbed "The X-Files". The product which I worked on with her, as it turns out, does not need subbing. Which means that I should not have wasted my time editing the darn thing since she rejected everything, saying that those were from an external source and cannot be changed. Not even the obvious typos... Well, Isure feel like an (x) fool.

But of course, she failed to tell me this earlier. On top of that, her e-mail to me sounded as if I was dumb enough not to know and sorta wasted her time. Even if I did know, it's not like she was being specific as to which part needed subbing and which didn't...*sigh*

In this case, I sure wouldl like to work with a Scully. As much as she is rather rigid, matter-of-fact and by the book, at the very least I know I could rely on her to lay down the facts on me straight up. I wouldn't have to go through the trouble of going around in circles, hunting aliens and all for something that should be left well alone.

Ah well... Serves me right for having a penchant for all things paranormal. Never thought I'd work with one, though...

Love,
HAminudin

This time, Last year...ep.2

This time last year, the Twisties' weekly hang-outs escalated to the point where we saw each other everyday. From lunch at the HS Square together, to after class group dinners and karaokes and lepak sessions, to the class pontenging (especially Literary Criticism and EAP mass lectures the next morning after a tiring lepak session the previous night) to go to Bangi Kopitiam, to hours of McDonald's/Burger King sessions, to drives and anyway else we found to get together and have some good get-together time.

We all became quite the inseparable bunch. It was something that I treasured very much. Well cherished memories; even if it did end on a bitter note in some ways. Having spent most of my university life in solitude (I had Aaina as my roommate for over 3 years, and Fidzy & Sarah earlier on; but for the most part, we never did quite go out very often), it was wonderful to fill the void that I often felt when alone for too long. It was good to be spending those otherwise quiet times with friends. It was just nice to have good company, good food and good laughs and conversations that had me falling asleep happy. It was quite a way to spend my last year as a university student.

Of course, under the surface, unbeknownst (I feel like Buffy when she said "...from whence it came". Possibly a result from hanging with Giles for too long) to myself, something was brewing and I would not realize it until it was boiling hot, with bubbles rushing hurriedly to break upon the face of the water. I always believed that the little things make up something bigger; well, this was the 'something bigger' that was happening to me. It would take a month to occur. And all the while in the interim, I was in total ignorance. Well, not totally... I had one person who constanly hinted to something more. Perhaps I just didn't listen; never gave much thought to the it being the something that was already brewing...

Ah well, how the tides turn in unexpected ways :)


Ronald aka Fidzy's ex-husband and his friend, the Voucher (or is it Vulture?)

Me and Yumi during one of our usual lepak sessions

Love,

Twisted Redface

aka Linzy