Friday, August 19, 2011

Setar struck hard

Due to a small honest mistake, a wrong judgment in choosing of front covers, an oversight... we might be losing a good friend in the office. A comrade. One from our ranks. All over a voluntary job he decided take up, he might lose his career altogether. Over something that was blown out of proportion. It was a mistake, yes, and it was sloppy of him to miss that detail, but the consequences...is much too harsh. His fate now lies in the balance. And we can only hope that the party gunning for his suspension, for our shutdown, will take a step back. It's Ramadan for God's sake, forgive. Stop the swearing and accept the apology already.

And speaking of shutdown, as rumour has it, we might just...if people push hard enough. And that means, no pay. No salary. No anything. And it's just a few days to Raya. We have bills to pay, rent to meet, cars, and ultimately, families... A shutdown doesn't mean a free holiday. It means no money in our pockets. How to pay for travelling, for clothes, for food? We'll be celebrating Raya without a cent. Tell me how is that fair punishment for what is only theorised to be a ploy to poke at racial/religious sensitivities?

It's Ramadan. You said it yourself. Tak hormat Ramadan? Perhaps you should look in the mirror when you call out "bullsh*t" and maki us nicely.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Stumbling

I don't mean to stumble upon you.

But you've got me stumbling...


Worried, scared...that I'll never be everything you could have been. Terrified that my place here is only to half-fill voids. 

Ghosts are a-haunting again. Rousing with the shadow of doubt, the smell of fear. They whisper words I have long left forgotten, long thought would stay buried with the rise of dawn.

I am on a lone boat upon a harsh sea. Stumbling upon the waves. Afraid of the deep unknown. 

The shore is a long way off, and I do not want to be rescued. I'm in this for the ride. Come wind and high tide. Would you just...come row with me?

Thursday, August 04, 2011

I don't want...

I don't want to be you. Don't get me wrong, I love you. But I don't want to be you. I don't want to live your life. I don't want to be second-guessing life. I don't want to live but not live. I want to live. And I don't want your life. You are beautiful, but I don't want the life you have to live. I hope I don't make the same mistakes. I hope my luck is better than yours. I hope I can correct your wrongs with my right. I hope I can live what you couldn't.