Sup3rnality

These thoughts occur very far and long in between one another. It is during these moments of weakness, this helplessness and weariness that makes me want to just give up the fight. I wonder, just wonder and not want, I wonder how easy it would be to just lay down arms and just give up on everything? Surrender every strength I've thought I have and just stop? What is it to just close my eyes and let life leave me? I'm so tired about so many things that my two hands cannot hold on to. I'm tired of fighting, I'm tired of waiting for things to get better. I'm tired of climbing into bed each night in search for that elusive fiend called sleep. How would it be to just give up the fight? Take the coward's way out and flee from the coming dark? How would it be, just to forget about all that I hold dear and close my eyes and disappear?