Sup3rnality

Ever felt like running away? Just dissapear silently to somewhere where no-one knows your name? And where you can forget what you left behind? I know it's all too much to wish for to do but... that's exactly what I would love to do right this bloody instant. Well...as if. I'll never be able to run away...and that's the sad part of it. Wherever I turn, it'll always be there waiting to jump at me. Woe is me...hahaha. I sound pretty dramatic there. Anyways, *sigh*.... Will I ever be free from this nightmare?

I want to live another life...Shoot! I LOVE the life I have now, but under these circumstances I just can't...well, I just can't live. My head is spinning like Hell everyday. All these things haunt every corner of my mind before I drift off to sleep. I can't run away...It follows me. Unless if I just-you know, die or something... But.... I don't want to. I wish I could stop time and forget everybody existed.

Surprisingly, and ironically; the only place I can get a bit of solace is in UIA. That's where I'm bombarded with so many other things that I forget what I have to live with. I have friends who are constant fun (Thanks dudettes!) and always the highlight of my crappy days. But UIA itself is a place of total depression. Funny how life is...

Is there somewhere I could run away to? Someone I can run away with? Just for a while? Even a day would be Heaven...Damn, am I saying all this? Hell yeah, I am. I dunno dudes, I'm just at the end of the rope at this moment. Just forgetting who I am, what I did, what I'm going through even just for a while would be nice...I don't want it to be permanent, just like a week or something...But yeah, it's too much to ask. And that kind of things only happen if you're in some sorta fairytale....Running away somewhere and forgetting my name? Yeah...just a bloody fairytale. "...and I won't tell 'em your name..."

Name-The Goo Goo Dolls (written by John Rzeznik)

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell ‘em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are?

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name